Reflecting on 2 Years of SMA My Way
It’s strange to think that a little over two years ago, I witnessed — and participated in — the conception of SMA My Way, a patient-focused community sponsored by the biotech company Genentech to support all of those affected by SMA.
A lot has changed since then. I graduated with a master’s degree, finished writing my novel, got a cat, and, y’know, survived the Year From Hell. I’m a different person than I was in 2019. So, it makes sense that, in reflecting on the past two years, I’m seeing SMA My Way through a different lens.
I still have a mad case of impostor syndrome. It’s not easy being an aspiring writer in a room full of bestselling authors. I don’t run a business, and I don’t use my master’s degree for anything except strong-arming my friends into starting therapy. At the latest SMA My Way meetup, contributors were asked to choose an object that represented us as people. Unsurprisingly, I panicked, and said the first thing that came to mind.
Not the first draft of my novel, which I printed in spite of my environmentalist tendencies.
Not my bookshelf, or my diploma, or my ratty Jonas Brothers tee.
I chose my cat tree because, and I quote, “My cat is my life.” (Rey is great, but I swear to God, I’m not that much of an old cat lady.)
Maybe the pandemic has made me less cool. I don’t know. But I still feel the fluttery nerves of “not enough-ness” whenever I hop on a Zoom call. My brain cycles between the same two thoughts: “I’m not contributing enough” and “I don’t deserve to be here.” Sometimes I think both thoughts at once!
Insecurities aside, I can’t tell you how fulfilling it’s been to watch SMA My Way go from idea to proof of concept, to what is, frankly, an utterly sexy website. On bad days, I don’t feel like I belong, but even my impostor syndrome wilts in the face of how cool it is — not just to contribute, but to witness it unfold. It’s meaningful in the way that writing is meaningful. In devoting myself to an endeavor, I get the privilege of watching something grow.
At the end of the day, I’m new to the SMA community. I’ve only been connected for a few years. But the strides that have been made since 2017 are incredible. That includes available treatments. Kids with SMA have options now, options that seemed impossible when I was growing up. Part of me is sad — I’ll never know what it’s like to be a mostly abled kid. But most of me is ecstatic.
The kids deserve it. The parents deserve it. And we deserve it, too — the 20-somethings who went their whole lives without community.
I don’t know what’s next for SMA My Way. I don’t know what’s next for the 20-somethings, the kids on Zolgensma, the parents who bounce between conference booths like Energizer bunnies. But here’s what I do know.
Maybe someone will come up with a cure. Maybe society will revisit its views on disability and treat us like actual human beings. (See: marriage inequality, subminimum wage, widespread infrastructure inaccessibility.) Maybe nothing will change, and in spite of that nothingness, we’ll cultivate community — as folks affected by SMA, yes, but also as people with abnormal body-minds. Maybe Disney will finally get its act together and create a princess in a wheelchair. (When you wish upon a star?) Maybe something unbelievably good will happen, and everyone will benefit, especially those who are so often overlooked by U.S.-centric campaigns.
I don’t know! But that’s the exciting thing. In the not knowing is the opportunity to make the impossible possible.
Let’s get to it, shall we?
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